Should I date again?

It's a funny feeling, not having someone to chase after anymore. I don't like it. When I had Ms. Zun in my crosshairs, my search was actually over, and I had moved on to taking down the prey. But now she's out of the picture for now, and I have to go back to searching again, which is the worst part. It's terribly hard to find great girls, and I always feel the pressure of trying to find one before I'm like 30 and practically ready to retire. It literally took me a solid 1.5-2 years of online dating to find this Ms. Zun. I don't like that track record at all. Very very worrisome.

I remember when I was with my ex, and we were like 1 year into our relationship, I felt at peace and satisfied. I felt like a whole person. It's because I didn't have to worry about trying to look for "The One", because I was already with my ex. I had doubts sometimes whether she was the one or not, but most of the time I was happy with her. She was someone I could be close with emotionally and physically. I guess I miss that aspect, having someone whom I get to share everything with, someone whom I can just love with all my heart without it being overwhelming or overbearing for the other person.

Now I don't have anybody like that in my life. But it's a trade-off. When I was with my ex, she was my everything, and I was pretty much her everything. That meant that I didn't really have much of a social life outside of spending time with my ex. Now I have a lot more friends I hang out with, and I've become closer with my friends, which is awesome. But I don't have anyone where I can slap her on the ass and call her beautiful lol.

Can I live my life without someone whom I can be super close to and whom I can pour my heart out to? Probably, because I'm living right now. Would I feel complete? I don't feel complete right now. I know what it's like to have an intimate relationship and I miss that feeling. I think if I were to find someone else, I'd feel whole again. This feeling of wholeness... I don't think it's necessary for me to succeed in life and make a lot of money... but it would sure make me happier and more peaceful, and that's also a measure of success in life as well, besides money.

Is the fact that I miss having an intimate relationship enough reason for me to date just anyone decent? I am not sure... let's pro and con this out.

Pros for dating a girl who's decent, but not necessarily fully wifey material:
-someone to share thoughts and feelings with
-someone to get physically intimate with
-someone for me to love and care for

Cons for dating the above girl:
-will break up eventually due to the fact that I wouldn't want to marry them
-will get emotionally destroyed due to breakup
-all resources, like time and money, spent on relationship will be for naught, shitty return on investment, plus you gotta factor in the opportunity cost as well of the resources spent

So I guess I'd be sacrificing present money and time for present physical and emotional gratification. The alternative would be for me not to date, so I'd save money, and the time I could spend somewhere else more productive, but I wouldn't experience that intimacy again.

Overall, I don't know. What a great conclusion haha.