On socioeconomic status and dating

Well, this is my first post (more like endless droning/ranting), so it'll take a few posts before I refine my format for my blog. I'm just going to speak my mind. This post, and all my other posts, are not essays. They won't have structure. They will just be basically me throwing up my inner thoughts all over the internet in the form of text.

I met a girl on POF. Her name is Ms. Zun, and she's pretty much what I'm looking for for the past two years. She shares my humor, we like the same stuff, she's Cantonese like me, she's smart, I think she's hard working, and she's pretty. Very damn pretty. So what's wrong, you may ask?

Well, she's rich. Internet, you don't know me, so I'll explain. I'm not rich. My parent's aren't rich. Time out, I have to define rich. By rich, I mean wealthy from the perspective of first world countries like Canada. My parents own a restaurant and they are trading away their life for money. They aren't making money with their minds, they are making money with physical labour. I am grateful for everything they are doing, and I know I can't blame them for trying their best. But objectively speaking, even with their efforts, we are not considered rich by any standards. We live in a small townhouse in Surrey. $220k I think. We have 2 Volkswagens, and a beat up Mercedes (1991 E300). Socioeconomically, we're lower class. Again, I am thankful I have a roof over my head, and that I have a car to travel in, but I am comparing myself to people in Vancouver and Richmond, who live in $600k -$1 mil houses, drive $40k+ cars, and have brand name material goods. Those people have no hesitation most of the time in spending money. It is of no concern for them. I have the mindset of a socioeconomically lower class person. I ALWAYS think about the money. The reason is because I don't have a lot, and I have to make every dollar count. I guess that's what it comes down to. I have to worry about money, and therefore I consider myself lower class, financially speaking of course. Others don't have to worry about money, and I could consider them upper class, financially speaking.

Anyway, Ms. Zun lives near Oakridge in Vancouver. It's a pretty damn rich area, and from her photo with her dog, I can see she has a backstreet, and she lives in a single detached house. Those houses are most likely $700k-$900k. So, she's rich. And she probably has lived a rich lifestyle, where she didn't really have to worry about the money. If I get into a relationship with her, that means she'll transfer that lifestyle to the relationship.

I want to be able to provide for her. Hell, I wanna be able to provide for my future family, and make sure they don't go through what I went through, of basing every single decision on money. They won't be spoiled though, I will make sure of that. So this Ms. Zun, how will I date her?

I understand I'm still a student currently, and I'm not suppose to be balling yet, but I have a biochem degree, and there is no future for me with that degree alone. All I can be is a lab tech, making absolute garbage money ($25k-$30k starting). It's fucking laughable. I can't even take care of myself with that kind of income, how the fuck am I suppose to have a family and provide for them. How am I suppose to date a girl who comes from a rich family with that kind of income?

Oh yeah, I don't know if she's rich or not for sure, I haven't dated her yet, but I will date her, and I will eventually know, and more likely than not, I'll be right. I do a lot of speculating, but I trust in my speculations because I'm pretty logical.

I am having a midlife crisis. It's not even midlife. I'm 23. It's a quarterlife crisis (fifth life if I'm lucky). HOW CAN I MAKE THE MONEYS SO I CAN RAISE A GREAT FAMILY AND MARRY A GREAT WOMAN?!

Bioinformatics?

I looked into it, but I don't have the programming pre-reqs. I can learn them on my own though. I would probably have to apply for a Masters Degree, but I don't know if I have 3 strong references. I got Carla, History Prof from UBC, Stephen, my supervisor from ABM, and maybe a Korean Teacher from Korea. I haven't done my best to network =/. Speaking of networking, my circle of friends is SHIT, and I gotta make more friends who's pragmatic and cynical like me =D But that's another story for another time.

But, convolutionx, you say. You don't need money to have a great life and raise a great family. I would challenge your thoughts on that. I want my family to have a shit tonne of options. I want them to experience everything life has to offer. I want them to follow their dreams. Money is the medium that allows me to provide these experiences for my family. Money is the means, not the end, because the end is an enriched life. You say I'm too money focused. I'm actually focused on life itself. That's my own perspective on my own perspective lol.

So what's the plan? Well, I'm pretty damn awesome. I have an iron will. My moral compass is dead set on the right thing, for my family, that is. I'd probably be willing to do immoral things if it benefits my loved ones. I have determination, and I have drive. Money aside, I'm pretty sure I'll make a great boyfriend or whatever for this Ms. Zun. Lol it just occurred to me Ms. Zun could google convolutionx and find this post. But I don't think she will. Even if she does... and she reads everything, I don't think she'll mind too much for being honest online. I didn't reveal her last name; she's totally safe. And I don't think I made myself to seem like a horrid monster. I am just a cynic who loves his family.

Oh yeah, also met this other super pretty girl named Ms. Y. Sooooooo pretty. Made my heart a flutter. I'm suppose to go on a date with her on Thursday, but I didn't really connect with her via chat, so I'm probably just gonna cancel the date on her. I prefer this Ms. Zun lady way more.

See, Ms. Zun, if you're reading this, I'm for cereal =P

I'm gonna ask Ms. Zun out over the weekend after her exam on Friday. Gonna be raining, so I have to think of some fun activities that are indoor. Definitely gonna go out for dinner though, and I'm going to try and prepay for the meal, just to be fancy. Prob gonna be sushi, because who doesn't love sushi.

I'm suppose to be studying biochem right now, but I've studied a lot already, and I think I deserve some time to type out my conscience so I can remain sane. Anything else on my mind? Not really, I think I got rid of everything. It feels damn good! Internet, you should try this. Very therapeutic.

I might do another post if I think of anything else. Gonna try and get a new theme for this blog site to make it cool, and I'll add some music as well.

All in all, I'm going to get rich, I'm going to marry a great wife, and have a great family. This will happen, because I say it will happen, and what I say, I will make into reality. This I swear to all the gods. Oh yeah, gotta make a post on religion.

TTYL internets.

EDIT: I'll give Ms. Y the benefit of the doubt and I'll invest my time and money into a date. At the worst, I hone my small talk/dating skills. At best, I'll discover that Ms. Y is a nice person and worth pursuing. Also, Turns out Ms. Zun has a laptop and a netbook... I dunno. #exorbitant? I can't judge, but it's just one more piece of evidence for my theory on her socioeconomic status.