The most banal post ever.

Nothing much. Just wanted to say that there is a never-before-seen meteor shower tonight:

http://www.extremetech.com/extreme/183007-tonights-brand-new-meteor-shower-could-turn-into-a-1000-meteors-per-hour-storm



Ms. Zun loves meteor showers, so I asked her if she was available tonight. I mentioned the meteor shower, then I mentioned if she was free tonight from like 11pm to 1am. I'm pretty sure anyone can figure out that I'm asking her out to see the meteor shower. My plan is to drive her down to McDonald Park in Abbotsford. It's a Dark Sky Park, and basically by law, they limit the light there for astronomical reasons. Favourite place for casual astronomers to go to observer meteor showers.

I predict that she won't answer me all day. It's how things are sometimes. I think I could have asked her in a better way, now that I think about it, but it's too late now. The message is sent. The better way I think would be something like, " So, are you going to see the meteor shower with your friends tonight, or are you gonna skip tonight?" If she says she'll skip, then I could ask her if she wanted to go with me. If she says she will go with her friends, then I'd be like, have fun. The way I asked her was indirect... too indirect... too pussy. It's like I'm giving her a chance to say no. But I think I should give her a chance to say no. I don't want to pressure her into being with me if she doesn't want to... right? But what kind of mindset is that? Oh, I don't know if she wants to be with me. I don't know if she has fun with me. I should be thinking, I'm da shit. Of course she has fun with me, and of course she wants to be with me. I don't know if that way of thinking is thinking with confidence, or just being plain cocky. I have to keep it in a balance.

But I can't go back on this invite, and the way I invited her. It'll probably not go through. But, I think I did the right thing by proactively inviting her out. Like, she won't make the move, ever. So it's up to me to keep on bringing her out with me to places and for me to arrange times for us to spend together. Better to try and fail than to not try at all, am I right? I think I'm right.

And as long as I keep making the right decisions day by day, I can't blame myself if things fail, because if I've done the best I can to control the controllables, IE: my own actions, then it's not my fault if stuff goes wrong.

Anyway, we'll see how the game pans out.

And also, I promised my sweet Lord that if things work out with me and this Ms. Zun, and if we end up being together... I'm converting. LOL.

Confidence. Where does it come from?

From reading some of my posts, you may have come to the conclusion that I am a confident individual. And yes, I am a confident individual. Now, convolutionx, where did you get your confidence from, and is it warranted? Do you even have a right to be confident? Well, I'll answer that question. I believe I am confident for several reasons.

I think one big reason is because I am aware of my competency in life in general, and it's pretty high. More often than not, when I put my head down and just work, I achieve pretty great results. A big part of my confidence booster was doing the Southwestern Internship. I did this during my first 2 summers of my university life. The premise of the internship is to do door to door sales of educational books, take their orders, order the books wholesale from the company, and then deliver it to your customers. For my first summer, I made a little over $10k in one summer.

But I worked long hours during both summers though. 13.5 hour days, 6 days a week for 14 weeks was how long I worked. I did pretty well, even though I had no sales experience, so that gave me confidence that if I survived doing that, I can do anything in life well if I set my mind to it. In case you're wondering how I did for my second summer, I didn't do nearly as well, and I made an embarrassing amount. But, that second summer I can argue I learned more about myself than my first summer. I learned how to persevere in the face of failure. I learned I had what it takes to wake up after 4 days of no sales, and go out there in the rain, and knock on that first door with a big smile on my face. I learned that I didn't make excuses, and I didn't pussy out of doing the program and just go home. I learned that I can keep commitments. I committed to finish the summer, and that's exactly what I did. So that's just my Southwestern experience. I tried jewellery sales at Reid Jewellery in Metrotown with 0 gem experience, and I did pretty well. I did a co-op gig as a lab tech with no prior experience, and I ended up being a rockstar, after a period of failure though. I guess the only blemish to my achievements would be my academic record. I don't exactly have jaw dropping marks, but this last year, I managed to turn things around. Averaging 1 standard deviation about the averages for most of my classes.

Another small thing that people overlook is whenever you make a promise, you keep your word and you do it. If you're use to the fact that whatever you say is transmuted into action and reality, you'll have more confidence in your words.

A superficial reason why I'm confident is that I have a pretty nice body. I know, it's superficial, but it still makes me feel confident. Why does it give me confidence? I'm not too sure. I mean, no one is gonna see it anyway. Maybe it's because I know I have something that other people strive to get but don't have. It's like I have pocket aces up my sleeve, and I'm the only one who knows that. Here's some pics, and no, I don't even post this crap on my facebook or anywhere else. You guys have the exclusives to pics of my bod lololol. You should feel honored, all you random-ass guests who somehow arrived on this page from who knows where.

But I think the biggest reason why I am confident is because when it comes down to it, I don't care about what most people think, especially strangers. I mean, do those strangers know me as a person? Nope. Therefore, with incomplete information, their drawn up conclusions about who I am as a person will be incomplete as well and not valid. Plus, my self worth is not based on what other people think of me. It's based on what I think about myself, and I love myself. This frees me to do whatever I want with no worry, and a lack of worry about how others perceive me, in a sense, is confidence. I guess real confidence is knowing the fact that whatever you do, you know people will have a good perception of you. Maybe my confidence is less legit version, but I'm slowly getting there, to the legit version of confidence.

So just to summarize:
1. Be competent
2. Do what you say you're gonna do.
3. Have a body you can be proud of.
4. Give no shits about what others think about you. Remember, there is only 1 person who determines your self worth, and that person is you.