Game on again... for now.

Even though Ms. Zun is playing some sort of game, or doing some sort of maneuver that is making my life hell right now, she agreed (against her better judgement, maybe? That's what it sorta kinda felt like), for a second date. Now, this is just a really loose interpretation. Basically I was like, free Mon or Tues for dinner or coffee? She said she was busy these two days, but should be free Thursday. I've done enough SouthWestern to know a blow off when I see one, and this is like a textbook blow off, so I'm not getting my hopes up too high.
I decided to be a little creative and create a "prix fixe menu" for her to let her build her own date, so to speak. Gave her a choice to drive, or I drive, or get to the nature walk in separate cars. Gave her 3 choices for nature hikes, and they're all easy 1.5-2 hour walks. Super super super easy. Then I gave her a choice of 3 different eateries for after.

I don't know where we are in terms of relationship-wise. Obvs I'm barely BARELY thawing her icy shield. I don't even know how my progress is. It feels like driving in a dense fog with no headlights. I'm just going forward, but I can't tell where I'm going or how fast I'm going. I ain't gonna press on the brakes though. That's what losers do. I'm gonna keep on striving to melt her ice, until I break through, or until she tells me to fuck off, basically. So for now, I just gotta assume things are going well, and I just gotta assume we're at the stage where we can go for a hike in the sun without her having to worry that I'm gonna take her into the woods and stab her or something. I'm pretty sure she wouldn't suspect such a thing though... I mean, I uploaded sooooo many Facebook pics of me going hiking with girls and guys, and none of my friends ended up dead, and no one wrote on my wall complaining that I tried to kill them...

I'm pretty satisfied with my overall performance thus far. If it doesn't work out, I tried my best, and the "fault" would lie on her, rather than myself. I will still love me, and that's super important. Of course, I might not be satisfied with where I am in life, and I'd probably vow to improve myself, just like how I vow now everyday to improve myself. Even though I want to change, I still love me because I have the strength and determination to strive for the change.










In life, if you have no cheerleaders rooting for you, you gotta be your own cheerleader. #foreveralone #nahjkIgotfriends