Msged her this evening. She responds back pretty quickly, then for my subsequent msgs she responds like 2 hours later...
...saying that Thursday is cancelled because she has piano kids to teach.
Objectively, most of this is understandable. She claimed she was busy Mon/Tues. So if she was, she wouldn't have been able to teach her kids, and it would make sense for her to shift her students to Thurs and Fri. Subjectively...
Sigh. I'm use to it now. It's pretty much become SOP (Standard Operating Procedure). I say something, especially something to do with dating, or something sweet, she doesn't respond right away anymore. Pretty much responds the next day. And even when I do organize stuff, she says she's busy.
I'll treat this as a test. A test of my will and determination. At the end of the day, it won't matter if I succeed in dating her or not. Well, it would matter, if I determine that she is the person I think she is. But what's more important, I can look back and be proud of the effort I put in for pursuing her.
EDIT: Said something else to her, and she disappeared on me again. Objectively, this is what happens:
1. She messages me back. She appears to have the green circle, indicating she's online.
2. I respond to her message. I give a good 3-4 msg bubbles worth of response.
3. *Poof* Her green dot turns into a grey dot, indicating that she either turned off the chat on me, or she logged off herself. The time it takes for her dot to turn grey is about 30 seconds to 1 minute after I message her.
4. There is a period of time where she doesn't respond. This period lasts anywhere from 1-2 hours to like 8-10 hours.
5. She responds. Rinse and repeat cycle.
Sometimes, the loop breaks where we manage to have a back and forth convo. We use to have a lot of that, but lately, ever since the first date, things have changed. I don't even know why. I haven't done anything differently. All I've done is to flirt lightly here and there. Objectively (I always use the word objectively, and it may seem overused, but I believe in logical thinking, and logical thinking is thinking void of emotions, and using only objective observations void of personal interpretation, so whenever I try to logically deduce something, I try and rid myself of emotions, and I let my readers know I'm doing so by saying "so objectively....") I think there is a greater deviation of behaviour on her end compared to on my end. My changes in behaviour just included a gradual increase in flirtatious messages, and an increase in saying sweet things, things I want to say, but would have held back had I not confessed to her that I like her.
Example: So she said she's sorry for being such a downer these days; she's been telling me how her friends annoy her because her friends seem like they were born with a silver spoon in their mouths, and that it disgusts her when her friends say stuff like, "Ehr mah gerd I can't even put sushi from X Restaurant without gagging." (Sidenote: what kind of spoiled brat would say that?)((Side side note: Ms. Zun was born into an affluent family, but she's not spoiled, and that's one of the reasons why I like her). She also said that someone said something that reminded her of her grandmother, who's passed away. For the record, I don't mind at all that she's sharing this with me. I want to be there for her, so the more she shares with me, the better.
My response to her calling herself a downer was something along the lines of, "I don't think you're a downer. And even if you were, I actually don't mind at all, because that just means I have to try harder to bring smiles to your face on Thursday." Boom, 10 points to GRYFFINDOR YO.
I'm just getting so tired... but I'll endure on. Lol, I fking sound like I'm Ghandi or something. This is ridiculous. My life should not be this affected by someone. The Dr. Spock in me is just shaking his head at myself... Man, 10 points from Gryffindor for letting this one girl mess me up like this.
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